Sunday, September 12, 2010

Truth be Told

It is Sunday evening and I just got all my children down for bed.
We had a nice day at the beach today.
Would you like to hear a little story of mine?

I realized today that my two year is my last baby.  At least the last one I will carry in my belly.  I am done with pregnancy.  In a way it is a little liberating, knowing the impending freedom I will gain as he gets older.  But in another way, it is a little sad.  I loooooooooove babies.  I loved all my babies so much.  Of course I still love them, :), but there is something about babies that makes me melt.

I am super blessed to have had four of my own.  About 7 years ago I was surprized with a cyst about the size of a grapefruit on my right ovary.  When I went in for surgery, they found that my ovary was encapsulated inside the cyst, and they took the ovary out with the cyst.  It was also discovered that I had a severe case of endometriosis.
My doctor told me that I had about an 8-10% chance of conceiving another child.  At the time my oldest was four.  I wasn't exactly heartbroken, because I felt I was lucky to at least have one.
But God had other plans for me, because three months later I was pregnant.  I ended up having three more children in five years.
I used to feel a little guilty about being so fertile.  There are so many women in the world who cannot conceive.  So many women who would make excellent mothers.  If you are one of them, I just want you to know that I do pray for you.  I pray that one day you will have a child.  I pray even harder that you will find peace in whatever happens.  Because I know that God has your life, your destiny, in his hands.

Truth be told, I never planned on having such a large family.
But I am grateful and humbled that I am the mother that God intended me to be.
I realize that I am blessed beyond belief.  It is my goal to never, ever forget that.


faith from within said...

Pretty darn fabulous Chris.
It means so much to know your heart and I love you for being you.
Funny thing, Steff and I just had our yearly conversation about when we'd be getting the call from know THE call. :)
Sending you a huge hug because I love you!!

Heather at Blessed Little Nest said...

such a great post! and so inspiring. your faith, compassion, and love for the way God has used your life are all a testament to your amazing faith.

Jennwith4 said...

With 4 of my own I understand what you are saying. We also believe it's time to move on to the next chapter in our life and at times it makes me a little sad. But I know that the Lord has great things in store for us and I'm excited to see what's on the next page. Have a blessed day!

Casey Ellingson said...

oh Chrissie, you made me tear up. I love you. xxoo

Julie Johnson said...

So sweet. We also have 4....three under my heart, and one born in it. Yesterday we looked at each other and said, it really is perfect right now. Our "babies" are 6 1/2, and oldest is 13. We are loving all that we can do with each of them, and I'm so thankful to be home still. Hugs to you!

sara's art house said...

Wow- that is an amazing story. I love the sweet pictures of your baby :)

Miss Creativity said...

Thank you for sharing that with us. I have two grown up children and one with the Lord and I always thank him for giving me those babies because as we know children are only on loan.

Tara said...

Precious babies! You are truly blessed.

Rashpreet Kaur said...

Hey that's really a lovely story...U Really are blessed and may the Lord continue to bless with all things bright and beutiful... :-)