Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Practicing Grace with myself...

I've been feeling a little unsettled lately.
Nothing's wrong, neccessarily, but just a tiny nagging feeling that something isn't right.

Turns out I realized today my life is way out of balance.
I have a lingering problem with balance...I have a hard time saying no.
I have too many projects going on.
I've been obsessed with working and my emails and my stupid iphone.
I let the house get out of control and then I'm paralyzed and don't know where to start.
I won't go to the gym because I have too much work to do.
I catch myself saying no to the kids more often than I'm saying yes.
I haven't read a book in a long, long, time.
I fall asleep at 8:30 because I'm so exhausted, which leaves little time for my hubs.
I find myself ordering pizza, microwaving chicken nuggets, and throwing some apples or carrots on the plate so I don't feel like a bad mom.

Does any of this sound vaguely familiar?

Today I sloughed off work.
I cleaned all the kids rooms, went through their clothes and undies and pj's.  Made a huge bag for Goodwill and a list of things to keep an eye out for to prepare for cooler weather.
I made some necessary flu shot appointments, washed bedding, did laundry, organized paper work, and I allowed myself to enjoy it all.
I spent a little time on the computer looking at possible Christmas presents for the kids, and that was really fun!
I'm hoping tomorrow after a dentist appointment I will feel up to get a much needed mani,pedi, and eyebrow wax.
I need to allow myself to take care of myself!  That sounds so crazy to write, but I find myself lacking in that area!

Sometimes I forget that ultimately God is in control.
I find myself trying to take the drivers seat...ha!  We all know that doesn't work.
I need surrender to Him.
I'm tired of trying so hard, when all He wants me to do is just BE.

Did you read all that?
I am so guilty of being the woman on the left.
I'm so grateful to have a fresh start again tomorrow, to practice grace with myself...

Oh, the glory of a new day!  :)



Beth @ The Goad Abode said...

I can relate, despite not being a mom. Our house is a mess, I don't feel motivated to get in shape because it seems like too much work and I have so many things asking for my attention. I especially love the Super Woman V. Abiding Woman...thank you for sharing! May we meditate on those verses in our times of feeling we need to act like a "super woman."

Jen said...

Thanks for sharing! I am a part time photographer and a mom and a wife and all those things have such a strong pull on my heart and time. There was a time when I was working on my photography 50 hours a week and still trying to do the rest. I still can see myself shooing my kids away. I had to get away and spend some time with God to check my priorities. I can get really focused on work. All of those pictures you used I can relate to. It is good to remember to ABIDE and seek His will for my day! Thanks again! It was a sweet reminder for me.

Leslie said...

Boy did I need this post! I read the abiding woman first..and thought..that is me..a little anyways...then...I read the super woman on the left...yikes...sounds way more like me!
I am with you, God is so good and he loves us :)
Here is to encouraging each other :)

Creatively Content said...

Beautiful post. I appreciate our honesty and sharing it with us. I have been a follower for some time and wanted to say thanks for your sweet vulnerability. I am pretty certain I have a post similar to this in my archives.:) Starting a fresh day is such a gift.

Angela Nash said...

Wonderful Wonderful post.

Jana Zilinkova said...

HOW TRUE! and honest... xxxx well done & all the best

Ruth said...

I can relate. Prioritizing our time and not getting sucked in to one thing or another is easier said than done. I am glad you shared this great reminder with us. I sure could use a mani-pedi-wax too. Hope you took the time for yourself.

Unfortunately, when reading that list I can relate to the super woman more times than I care to.


Tara said...

I can so relate! Needed to see and hear and read that today.

amy jupin said...

feeling so similarly.
there's a nagging inside of me.
can't figure it out but it's leaving me feeling drained. emotionally.
maybe we should get together for coffee.
wouldn't that help us out so much?!

Anonymous said...

Dont you love it when you read something at a particular time and realise it was meant just for you (well probably lots of others too!!!)I have been letting things get into an ever increasing crooked wheel that is spiralling out! So after reading your post I realised that the art was going to have to wait and I would catch up on the house and the washing and the paper work.I had been ripping off God by only doing my daily devotions sometimes. So pleased I did!! Now I feel back in balance and family life is back in balance. Thanks Chrissy for the timing!